The Truth Is ...

The other lines of the book that I read stated :

"Finally he said, 'You're right. I'm not telling the truth'."

The statement of the author's client made him looked deeply into his own life and found quite a few lying. Inspired him to write 17 LIES book. The author himself is trying to see lie in different angle and make it as a motivation to do something better. How ?

He gave other sample when someone said that he's powerless. The author consider that's lie and how this lie could motivate someone to be powerful. Then I thought, how about other lies ? The lies that commonly appear in the relationship. The lies that other people and me realize how easy to do it.

But.. I'm not interesting with the lies. I just believe somehow all of us would lie, depends on the circumstances. I am more interesting to know the reasons why someone should tell lie or why I am lying. Why can't I just simply said, 'I'm not telling the truth', just like the statement above.

So... what's the truth ?
Do we always need to know the truth ?

We teach our children that honesty is the best policy. We attempt to potray ourselves as honest human beings. We claim that we always, always want to know the truth. But... is that really true or are we just lying to ourselves ?

Other article that I read stated ;

"The truth is, we lie. We lie for the sake of convenience. We lie so that people will like its better. We lie to avoid hurting people. We lie because we're secretly ashamed for feeling a certain way".

We lie to the most are the ones closest to us. Realizing that the consequences of what we say will be borne by those we share it with, filtering the truth has become a necessary survival tool."

... and I just stand still and try to examine the whole lines. At the same time, I just take a deep breath in remembering how I demand the truth in my relationship. I need more time then to capture the whole picture of what's going on, about this truth ...

article by HER WORLD MAGAZINE (The Truth Is ...) Nov 2008
picture by khwaja.wordpress.com
book by Steve Chandler (The Story Of You)

True Lies

In one episode of Grey's Anatomy, a man suffering from a brain tumor was admitted into the hospital for surgery. One of the effects of the tumor was his inability to filter his thoughts and his words. He says what he thinks and only apologizes if someone tells him that he is being rude.

Is telling the truth all the time akin to being rude ? Imagine if that was you. Not only would you not have any secrets left, you probably wouldn't have any friends either.

I might agree with the case above because it's quite rude if someone telling me the truth which is telling something I want to deny, to refuse... (although at the same time I demand for the truth itself, phuuuih... confusing !)
There are circumstances that I want other people lie to me as I lie to them as feeling consideration, although sometimes lie or telling the truth could ruin the relationship or else just like the article said,

"In all fairness, no one has any right to suggest such a thing (lie or tell the truth) unless they have the whole story. And yet, more often than not, we let the people closest to us get away with it. Which explains why another study which found that partners who idealized each other are more likely to be satisfied with their relationship and stay together. They hide the painful truth.

In such cases, we're lying to ourselves. We have been conditioned to believe that the feelings of those around us are more important than our feeling. Tell other the truth but in no circumstances should you reveal feelings that will hurt others, we've been told. Don't show your anger, don't cry. So we live in a state of denial, telling ourselves we're happy when we're not. Smiling when what we really want to do is curl up under the covers and cry out our eyes out.

Perhaps it's time to rethink the stance truth has held in the course of history. It's time to be honest with yourself. That's far more important to your wellbeing than always telling others the truth. Some might call it being selfish but if you're not looking out for yourself, who is ? Besides, are you sure everyone wants to know the truth all the time ?

Confession, some say, is good for the soul. But is it really ? Letting go of the things that plague you might make you feel lighter but the person on the receiving end might not. Would we really want to know the truth all the time ? Do we really want to know what others are thinking ?

Sometimes, it's better to live in ignorance than to be stabbed by the truth, as long as we're always honest with ourselves"

Well... I got the picture now. It's not about the truth or the lie, it's about being honest to yourself. In the end I just thought, why I should stay in the relationship when it makes me more hurt and uncomfortable with my own life.


article by HER WORLD MAGAZINE Nov 2008 (The Truth Is...)
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BluE eYeS bLue

I thought that youd be loving me.
I thought you were the one whod stay forever.
But now forevers come and gone
And Im still here alone.

cause you were only playing,
You were only playing with my heart.
I was never waiting,
I was never waiting for the tears to start.

It was you who put the clouds around me.
It was you who made the tears fall down.
It was you who broke my heart in pieces.
It was you, it was you who made my blue eyes blue.
Oh, I never should have trusted you.

I thought that Id be all you need.
In your eyes I thought I saw my heaven.
And now my heavens gone away
And Im out in the cold.

cause you had me believing,
You had me believing in a lie.
Guess I couldnt see it,
I guess I couldnt see it till I saw goodbye.

cause you were only playing,
You were only playing with my heart.
I was never waiting,
I was never waiting for the tears to start.

It was you who put the clouds around me.
It was you.

Oh, I never should have trusted you.
Oh, I never should have trusted you.
Oh, I never should have trusted you.

By diane warren
picture by timswineblog.com

Rise & Fall

A word rise is defined (one of it) as an increasement of something. In my hutan itself, a word rise refers to the appearance of the sun (moon and the stars).

That large bright thing in the sky will first appears in the morning and wakes everyone with its light and warmness. There's even a creature that makes a loud high sound to signal that the day is started for everyone and everything in my hutan.

You could see some of them are excited to begin the day and although I might find some of them are joyless, deep down in their heart and mind, there is hope of miracle might visit them (at least once).....

Here... in the place that I'm staying at the moment, I often see a kuih muih or a nasi lemak seller around bandar. The things that they sell often seduce my hungry tummy with its smell and taste... persuade me to buy it. No matter the weather that day, no matter the profit they make, the seller will do exactly the same thing every morning and always hope that today will be better than yesterday.

... Hope, makes some people linger more than they thought to something they do or belief.

Some people are even being motivated to achieve the things in their live just because of hope. Even during fall

... It's not only an amount of snow that has fallen onto ground but it refers too to a situation in which a person's life is failure or else in the bottom line. In that kind of situation sometimes people don' t even have any ideas how to stand up again, how to rise.

Everything is O.K !
Everything is gonna be alright !

Those sentences is other kinds of hope form. Those sentences are always being heard when THE FALL steps into someone's life, when someone's almost give in everything, when someone's just so lonesome. In certain circumstances although we have no clues how everything is gonna be alright, we just need to keep on moving... of course with the hope in our heart !

So, let's celebrate our lives !!


Text by : MegaRiyadi
Picture by : redbubble.com and p0rg.deviantard.com

..... cOLorS oF mY LiFe .....

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It's Raining

On a rainy day couple days ago, I could see from my balcony that some trees in the jungle across my apartment building, swung around and tried to stand still, no matter how hard the wind blew.


I just noticed that even the dark cloud and the heavy rain couldn't hide the calmness of the greenery. For hours during the raining, the trees looked swaying gently instead of cried out for help.

The circumstances that day envy me since I often feel restless recently. Perhaps the miscarriage has left a deep impact on me and slowly influence my daily life. I need much time to understand in this new stage of my life. Somehow I just can't bear the heartache.

On that day I believe the trees there have been through what I have been through to survive, to struggle in the jungle where we stay. It is clearly to see they are more humble to deal and overcome their barriers in living their life than me.

I need much time to understand and I might learn from the nature !


text by : MegaRiyadi

picture by : Deviantart.Com

MY HUTAN

Hutan or known as a forest is an area with a high density of trees. It is uncultivated area legally set aside for hunting. Forest can be classified in different ways and to different degrees of specificity. With so many classification that the forest has, there is known a dense forest in a hot climate, such as a tropical rainforest or familiar with a word jungle.

As a metaphor, jungle often refers to situations that are unruly or lawless, or where the only law is perceived to be "survival of the fittest". This metaphor guided me with my own definition of My Hutan.

My hutan is the greatest place that human being has ever created with all magnificent buildings, towers, monuments and all facilities to accomodate human being needs. In some places, you only could see the buildings instead of the trees. You seldom see animals (except pets) in your daily life. It has been replaced by people (although sometimes I might notice that certain people will act as the animals) because in other parts of my hutan people are able, willing to kill other people. Those people think that killing other people is an exciting as playing football.

My hutan will sing the harmony of the honking from each people's vehicles instead of the birds' chirping. Sometimes if it is your lucky day, you will listen the melody of protesters' scream (about everything) to lullaby your day.

When the sun gradually disappears at the end of the day, my hutan will look more prettier than noon. It's not because of the owl's whistling or the chattering of nite animals. It's all because of the lights that come out from the billboards, neonlights, the traffic light and the building itself.

Once you visit my hutan, you wont dare to leave it since it offers a spectacular scenery and I'd love to to be your guide...

Text by : Mega Riyadi - Wikipedia.Com - Bloomberg.